NaPoWriMo, 2016, Day 4 (on Day 5)–As ever

(because I am, as ever, running behind...)
(this one is for Natalie--a continuation of a conversation
that I think we have been having for quite a while now...
that I am very glad we are still having...)

As ever

I am afraid (always) 
that I am never (ever)
as (un) self-aware as 
I think I am (not)
or ever was (not).